I saw Onision on TikTok live today out of nowhere and he said I should share here what I wrote there. So here goes…

I was a young teen emo watching Onision like everyone else. The videos were sometimes the only thing that made me laugh, or at least distracted me, all week. I was recovering from being sex trafficked and this weirdo on the internet was somehow someone I related to.

I DM’d Onision one particularly hard day. I don’t know why, I was never expecting a reply or anything. I guess I needed a void to scream into. I basically wrote chaotically that I was having a really hard time living and his videos were funny. I can’t imagine dropping that bomb on someone now that I’m 30. What was I thinking? Either way, maybe like a day or two max later, he replied. He essentially said hey, it gets better. Reaching out is a good thing. Continue to do that to more trusted sources (an incredibly polite and subtle redirect, recalling this ~15 years later), and that my message meant something to him.

Well, I would never message Onision again out of pure embarrassment from being seen, but I did take all his advice. I got myself a really good guidance counsellor and stopped pretending to be fine to make everyone around me more comfortable. And I healed.

This isn’t some “onision is my hero” or a god or whatever post. It’s just another, less angsty, shout in the void. Onision’s message to me, however trivial it could seem, really did change the course of my life. The right thing to read at the right time in my life. He accidentally talked me off of the proverbial ledge and out of losing this complicated, wonderful life I live. I’m married, I have a very good dog, I barely have nightmares, and I still listen to some of the silly Onision songs.

I don’t tell a lot of people about this whole thing for various reasons, but that’s the story of how a YouTuber saved my life.

Long-time fan. I found his videos shortly after a rough breakup. From watching, I gained some self-esteem, changed to a healthier diet, and got into anime. He has no doubt been a great help to a lot of people. 💜

Any actual positive impact I had, great. Thank you for attributing a good experience to whatever my video series was.

I was a loner always by myself shy to make friends

when i needed a boost

Id watch his videos cause it made me not be alone

Cause he Liked anime

So it always made me happy watching his videos

Felt like having a friend i was watching

Even tho that sounds embarrassing now that i say it out loud 😣

Edited December 5Dec 5 by Hannah Newera

7 hours ago, Hannah Newera said:

So it always made me happy watching his videos

I'm right here - boring ole me.

Ur not boring to me or anyone here ❤️

Aw, glad to hear our favorite Bananaman was able to help you through that rough patch. For some reason an increasing amount of the youth are suffering various kinds of mental ailments these days. 🤕